To The Family and Friends

12:08 AM

Lately family seems to be this recurring topic that is constantly brought up in my life. I read about it, I watch it, I listen to it, I see it everyday. I see the good and the bad.

I see the families, mothers and fathers cautiously watching over their children, struggling to let them go, watching them grow up and smiling- reminiscing over the old memories and new memories to be made. I see these children filled with so much compassion and hope pushed by the love and faith of their parents and family members. It's the love, it's so strong.

Then I see the bitter side. Alienation. Isolation. Depression. Confusion. Struggling to guide themselves and fight. Their eyes and heart are cold, cautious at who they let in. They don't even know who they are themselves, they just go through the motions, try to make it day by day.


It's one of the most powerful influences in a persons life. 

My mom, my dad, my brother- greatest people I have ever met in my life. My parents are my inspiration. They inspire me to fight. Even when it seems like everyone has walked out of their lives they still kept their heads up and they have so much love to offer.

I swear some days I think my life could be a reality tv show. Both sides of my family are a bit screwed up, one side more than the other. And it breaks my heart every time I think about it. 

Do you know how hard it is to trust people and believe they will stay around forever when your own family has walked away from you and continues to try a cause pain? Forever doesn't even seem like a logical concept to me. Nothing feels like it can be forever, eventually everything can come to an end.

I am so thankful for all the people I have in my life. For the family I still have that support us and continue to love us unconditionally, for the friends I have made who have stepped in and became family figures for us and have reinstalled the belief that there is still good for me and my family, and for my own mom and dad for showing my brother and I that no matter what you must walk away with integrity because at the end of the day it's your own feelings your left to sort out. 

Family has always been one of the most important things to me, I just learned that there are many different meanings to the word family and in the end I still have these people to count on.

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